jounal hidup untuk bagasi muka 24

it's a frustration day and i wish i can drive a car..., so it'll be easier for me...., what made me so furious about??? i wanna go see a dentist but no one is willing to send me there..., and i really hate it..., i wanna drive my own but surely my parents are going to strongly disagree with the idea..., aaarrrrgggghhhh!!! if i'm not going there today.., then when??? the braces thing will be delayed..., and i just hate to go back too often (i'm sure have a lot to hate).., good thing.., none..., i've got 2 designs to do.., but since i'm too annoyed with all these things..., i don't think i can finish them now..., happy things are ahead but now..., the sorrows are disturbing me..., can't wrote much or i'll be cursing people.., till now..., wish for a happy journal next time...,

journal hidup untuk bagasi special edition episode 2

A Confession Of A Little Child

i have never dream of a normal life and always wish for the big huge success life glamor and well known and i have always dream to be in a fashion stream. no matter it is a fashion designer, boutique owner or anything related. i even told my mom when i was in form 4 that i wanna have my own boutique and she told her friend whose daughter is my junior. i guess i am a lot different with my other sibling since i love fashion a lot and i appreciate art more. it's not that i never dream of being an engineer, doctor or any intelligent needed industry, it just my obsession is unbearable and the talent i have and my self sense just bring myself to my dream. anyway, i just not good at those intelligent thing. since i was only 5, i'd dream a glamorous world. i even dream to be a singer (and many of people say i got the voice.., hihihihi). i always love the attention and fashion is a bit more different from that but still slightly the same. my parents aren't supportive enough on me doing this but i was just sick listening orders. this is the time where i listen to myself. this is what i am doing with full heartedly and i know that one day, this interest of mine can lead me to the world i want. i really pray hard for that. fashion, beauty, and art is something that should come together and i'll always keep admire those. with the sense of fashion that i have, the beauty that i obsessed and the art that i appreciate most, this is my dream and till then more episode will be posted.

journal hidup untuk bagasi muka 23

today.., just being some lazy ulat beluncas.., with the cold that sometimes make me wish for some matahari..., and being bored too since i am too malas to do anything because the weather made me feel like it..., trying to make some new background for this blog..., and secara malangnya..., i couldn't even accomplish one.., since i am a perfectionist.., i want them to be perfect..., and another reasons why am i being lazy-lazy one...., because when i wanna do things.., i want them perfect.., that's why i just hate doing things.., hahahahaha!! too far from the topic..., trying to make some boodle doodle.., but i guess.., i have my own way of doing..., so.., i just hanging around the internet looking for some inspiration.., and make some design.., that i kind of like them..., i'm sure have a lot of time right now..., even i realize that i should done another other bags and t's..., but no serious talking la today.., just nak being leisure je..., sekarang tengah gila dengan 2NE1..., one of the newest group in south korea.., their wave had slammed us..., even group baru kat sana pun dah boleh ada peminat kat seluruh negara.., bila agaknya malaysia??? i hope one day..., and i really mean it...., back to the 2NE1.., even i have become the member of their international fanclub!!! gila tak gila??? dulu minat DBSK tapi nak jadi ahli fanclub kena bayar la pulak.., hehehehehe...., you know i got some financial problem..., wee~~ not going to tell any further..., rasa macam banyak nak cerita tapi tak tahu macam mana nak cerita..., so, the conclusion is.., i just wanna stop here.., till then..., nak keluarkan yang special edition punya la.., hehehehehehe...,

journal hidup untuk bagasi muka 22

hari ini..., just rasa nak menulis atau mengeluarkan idea yang bernas terbuku dalam fikiran yang waras tak waras ni.., hehehehe.., sebenarnya tujuan tulis post baru ni sebab baru baca balik post-post terdahulu.., and i fugure out that i write english too much.., dan telah mengenepikan bahasa kebangsaan kebanggaan saya iaitu bahasa melayu..., malu sekejap kerana telah terlalu mengagungkan bahasa lain.., tapi post kali ni bukanlah nak bercakap pasal bahasa.., still about h.u.b..., tapi apa yang nak dibicarakan ye??? urm.., berfikir sejenak.., hari ini.., saya sedang berusaha untuk menyiapkan design untuk bag saya.., kegunaan sendiri tapi nye..., hehehehe..., but i'm sort of like the design.., a little complicated but still tak tinggalkan elemen doodle that usually does in my design..., if it is done..., i'll upload the pictures okay guys??!! ada beberapa perancangan untuk tahun depan tapi still hesitate whether boleh ke dijalankan because got obstacles yang memang susah nak overcome..., but will try seeking for the solutions..., dan saya berharap saya dapat buka satu kedai dalam masa setahun ni.., tapi saya hanya merancang.., yang menentukan hanyalah Dia yang satu..., kena banyak-banyak doa la macam tu..., hope all the dreams of mine will be true some day..., sokongan dari anda semua menguatkan saya untuk meneruskan usaha ni.., terima kasih kepada semua rakan-rakan yang memang banyak bagi support from moral, money and motivate me a lot..., i'll never forget that..., thanks a lot..., saya hanya boleh berdoa yang terbaik untuk anda-anda semua..., dan semoga sama-samalah impian kita semua tercapai.., Insya-Allah..., till now..., yang seterusnya...,

journal hidup untuk bagasi muka 21

today edition is about problem, problem, problemo!!! actually when i want to write this journal..., i got problem too where i got no idea how to start with..., and now i'm looking for some superb word to arrange the sentences..., where do i start with the stories?? ok, first my driving lesson..., please don't be wrong.., i've got my driving license already.., but almost a year i didn't drive a manual car., that's the problem.., and my driving is totally awful..., but that doesn't drive me insane yet.., what does is when hearing my mom screaming all over the way when i want to park the car.., oh, what a shame..., and when i succeed.., i got some lecture that honestly.., i hate to hear them..., but what to do.., that's their car not mine..., next was..., my laptop charger is broken which drive me more crazy..., because my plan to upload the new items picture is just can't be done...., then the result is out..., and it's dreadfully zenzen dame...., the worst ever..., which make me berserk i little bit more..., and now.., the camera is being borrowed by the neighbor..., and i have to wait until the camera is being returned..., till then..., nothing i can do..., except writing this journal and keep sewing and knitting the bags..., now for those who are asking what's wrong with me last week.., these are what had happened to me that bring me to the no mood mode...., thanks for the concern..., together with this journal..., i want to give lots of token of appreciation for all beautiful people that had become a fan of h.u.b facebook page...., thanks a lot guys..., may all your good deeds and support come with blissful from HIM...., and i'll always pray for your good and bright days..., i'll as soon as possible upload the pictures...., and actually me myself can't wait for that..., hurm..., pray the best for myself...., till then now..., more and more story next in muka 22..., wee~~

journal hidup untuk bagasi muka 20

why am i hesitating??? i was so sure back then but now..., what is happening??? i ain't sure whether i am doing this right..., or am i right doing this...., phew..., too much question with too little answer...., what should i do??? i keep thinking this a whole day.., i was questioning myself on this h.u.b thing..., but just a moment ago..., my sister ask me a question that might be the answer (or even the real answer i guess) for what am i asking!!! finally i retrieve my confidence that had just lost..., and what is more...., i should have more faith on him because...., to him i ask for everything.., and to him i pray hard for my dream..., the way i wrote might seems like i have lost my faith.., but the truth is too hard to explain..., what i can do now..., is praying.., and i know that HE got something better for me.., till then..., i've revive...,

was written on night of 1st December 2009