journal hidup untuk bagasi muka 22

hari ini..., just rasa nak menulis atau mengeluarkan idea yang bernas terbuku dalam fikiran yang waras tak waras ni.., hehehehe.., sebenarnya tujuan tulis post baru ni sebab baru baca balik post-post terdahulu.., and i fugure out that i write english too much.., dan telah mengenepikan bahasa kebangsaan kebanggaan saya iaitu bahasa melayu..., malu sekejap kerana telah terlalu mengagungkan bahasa lain.., tapi post kali ni bukanlah nak bercakap pasal bahasa.., still about h.u.b..., tapi apa yang nak dibicarakan ye??? urm.., berfikir sejenak.., hari ini.., saya sedang berusaha untuk menyiapkan design untuk bag saya.., kegunaan sendiri tapi nye..., hehehehe..., but i'm sort of like the design.., a little complicated but still tak tinggalkan elemen doodle that usually does in my design..., if it is done..., i'll upload the pictures okay guys??!! ada beberapa perancangan untuk tahun depan tapi still hesitate whether boleh ke dijalankan because got obstacles yang memang susah nak overcome..., but will try seeking for the solutions..., dan saya berharap saya dapat buka satu kedai dalam masa setahun ni.., tapi saya hanya merancang.., yang menentukan hanyalah Dia yang satu..., kena banyak-banyak doa la macam tu..., hope all the dreams of mine will be true some day..., sokongan dari anda semua menguatkan saya untuk meneruskan usaha ni.., terima kasih kepada semua rakan-rakan yang memang banyak bagi support from moral, money and motivate me a lot..., i'll never forget that..., thanks a lot..., saya hanya boleh berdoa yang terbaik untuk anda-anda semua..., dan semoga sama-samalah impian kita semua tercapai.., Insya-Allah..., till now..., yang seterusnya...,

journal hidup untuk bagasi muka 21

today edition is about problem, problem, problemo!!! actually when i want to write this journal..., i got problem too where i got no idea how to start with..., and now i'm looking for some superb word to arrange the sentences..., where do i start with the stories?? ok, first my driving lesson..., please don't be wrong.., i've got my driving license already.., but almost a year i didn't drive a manual car., that's the problem.., and my driving is totally awful..., but that doesn't drive me insane yet.., what does is when hearing my mom screaming all over the way when i want to park the car.., oh, what a shame..., and when i succeed.., i got some lecture that honestly.., i hate to hear them..., but what to do.., that's their car not mine..., next was..., my laptop charger is broken which drive me more crazy..., because my plan to upload the new items picture is just can't be done...., then the result is out..., and it's dreadfully zenzen dame...., the worst ever..., which make me berserk i little bit more..., and now.., the camera is being borrowed by the neighbor..., and i have to wait until the camera is being returned..., till then..., nothing i can do..., except writing this journal and keep sewing and knitting the bags..., now for those who are asking what's wrong with me last week.., these are what had happened to me that bring me to the no mood mode...., thanks for the concern..., together with this journal..., i want to give lots of token of appreciation for all beautiful people that had become a fan of h.u.b facebook page...., thanks a lot guys..., may all your good deeds and support come with blissful from HIM...., and i'll always pray for your good and bright days..., i'll as soon as possible upload the pictures...., and actually me myself can't wait for that..., hurm..., pray the best for myself...., till then now..., more and more story next in muka 22..., wee~~

journal hidup untuk bagasi muka 20

why am i hesitating??? i was so sure back then but now..., what is happening??? i ain't sure whether i am doing this right..., or am i right doing this...., phew..., too much question with too little answer...., what should i do??? i keep thinking this a whole day.., i was questioning myself on this h.u.b thing..., but just a moment ago..., my sister ask me a question that might be the answer (or even the real answer i guess) for what am i asking!!! finally i retrieve my confidence that had just lost..., and what is more...., i should have more faith on him because...., to him i ask for everything.., and to him i pray hard for my dream..., the way i wrote might seems like i have lost my faith.., but the truth is too hard to explain..., what i can do now..., is praying.., and i know that HE got something better for me.., till then..., i've revive...,

was written on night of 1st December 2009

journal hidup untuk bagasi special edition : episode 1

my little obsession of fashion and beauty

being an early 20's women (i guess i can say that) is sure hard where you would think about what would you wear tomorrow, how would you look in an event, how will you get married, will you ever meet you dream guy, will your kids look like you and other things that might only add your already-have wrinkle. and that doesn't go any difference on me. right now, i have my own obsession that had been stated above. it is actually not a new hot stuff to be discussed since i have that since i'm young. but i was just realized that when i was applying an eyeliner on my eyes. was i ashamed of them after? i was for a while but that doesn't go any further since i said to myself there's nothing wrong with that. what is even more, i can make money only by have a positive view to my obsession. there is nothing wrong at all to have your own obsession and you have to make sure you make use of it on a better things. as any other women out there, i want to look pretty all the time. even when i sleep even in a picture or even just going to pasar malam! i always want to be center of attention. i love when how people admiring the way i clothes and the way i look pretty with my own style and personality. i am never tired of these things and never will do. i tried funny weird attire sometime but most of them i wear what i want and i would and can say that i still look stunning dear. how much i love and adore myself, ain't i? but i never want to care about what will people say bad about me because it was just an envy feeling that everyone should feel when they got confidence gorgeous women in front of them. hahahaha. i'm sure proud of myself. hey girls and guys. if you don't even have confidence to say you are pretty and handsome, will everyone feel the same to you? no way in hell. just be proud being yourself, wear what you want and walk the way you like. people who talks about you were just admiring you and you should be proud of it. fashion are everywhere and they will never die. they will always keep changing and you should stay fashionable no matter what it cost you. but it doesn't mean you have to spend your valuable money on expensive attire and makeup, just have a smart thinking on hoe you could look better because me myself, have my own way of doing things. i'm not as pretty as you would imagine but i am proud of being myself and i am being pretty all the time. i think i read too much pages of one fifth avenue novel today that bring me to write this. it's okay since i want to write like this a whole long time ago. till now. please hope i will write more special edition in future.

journal hidup untuk bagasi muka 19

it's the second day after H.U.B 5th month anniversary!!! yay!!! congratulation!!! happy..., on progress of joint venture with revivalx project.., hope to be huge success.., so that it can popularize my brand..., really happy right now..., but in the process of doing this JV..., i found that it is actually a long way to go with lots of hardship..., and lots to learn..., i'm lucky to found it out at my early 20..., hope to be better in future..., (my cliche word.., wee~~) waiting patiently to explore more for my H.U.B..., really hope can be something like MNG, Roxy, Esprit, and other big name..., just a moment ago..., my JV partner tell me about events.., whether i could participate..., i would love too.., but in my condition right now..., it's kind of hard..., since i posses no car..., and it is really tough to just ride a public transport.., i can never imagine it nor bear with it..., urm.., but business just doing okay.., a little slower but i still can survive..., nurdin is doing a great job..., an enormous thank you for him...., for such wonderful job..., still working on our JV agreement.., or precisely.., not yet started.., wee~~ have to change myself to be more hardworking...., a president work cost you no rest and laziness.., okay!! keep it in your mind, my dear self..., till then..., i'll keep my jurnal for you guys...., daa!!

journal hidup untuk bagasi muka 18

it is hard when the most important person in your life is not being supportive enough on what you are doing..., and that is what had happened to me.., i might look really tough and know what to do for my life.., but the truth is just a lie...., i'm not that tough.., i was just pretending to be one..., just to survive in this cruel world...., and after this happened...., i ask myself back.., whether am i doing right??? but i'm just lucky..., whenever i got problems and something had come and brought me down.., dip me into a deep darkness..., Allah is just there to give lots of directions for me to keep what am i doing right now on and on..., and i was just lucky..., this is my biggest challenge that i have to face..., and you can never imagine the pain that you have to bear.., and i know that well..., i pray to The Greatest Allah.., if this is the obstacle that i have to go through for me to succeed later..., then let me be patience enough and help me to face this...., i know that to achieve something big.., you have to go through lots of pain and you might fall and hurt a lot..., i've learned that and that makes me more matured..., to HIM..., i pray a lot..., may this is the sign for me to be better next time...., thanks to all that had give me lots of supports and advices to me for becoming better person..., and better ceo.., wee~~ i will never forget all your good deeds..., Insya-Allah..., may Allah give me strength to keep this thing alive..., and may Allah bless you all..., till then..., this is my story...,

journal hidup untuk bagasi muka 17

my life isn't pathetic anymore...., just doing fine..., enough money until holiday...., got plans for holiday..., hope to be accomplished then..., got one final paper to go...., have gone through 4 killing paper..., and the last doesn't any less...., wish to watch phobia2.., but.., don't know how to get there.., hahaha!!! another work of lessen your money..., not much story about h.u.b...., just searching for ideas for designs...., oh.., i got story actually..., i am admiring this one person..., and last week.., i was watching his video..., the title got my favorite number..., 21..., and before his name..., they got my brand!!! this is what we called destiny??? i was losing my faith back then towards him.., but then i see the video..., it really makes me more determine..., weeeehhhhhuuuuu~~ hope to be true..., wasn't any patience to wait being a rich well-known C.E.O..., (hahahahaha!!! a dream to be reality..., hey, i am a C.E.O right now....,) when i got all the money i wish...., i want to give some to my parents, some for the orphanage, some for charity, some for environment and some for me!!! of course...., i got big dreams..., and i have plans for them..., just praying to ALLAH day by day to reach them...., may ALLAH bless my path...., and then i'll be meeting him..., and make him a better person, insya-ALLAH...., i can just have my plan while HE will be fulfilling them..., till then...., will write more in my next journal....,